Tuesday, July 14, 2009

July 13, 2000


Nine years ago, I had just moved back home with my infant - escaping a marriage that would even torture Satan. I had reconnected with my friends, and the livin' was good.... On the 13th of July in 2000 - my world turned upside down. My best friend, George was swimming in Perry Lake, he went under to retrieve some dropped sunglasses for a friend and disappeared. It was probably, at that time, the worst thing I could ever think of experiencing. I remember sitting by the phone - glued to the television- surrounded by people that I grew up with, and that all loved George so very much - praying, waiting...hardly breathing. We all had our own thoughts and hopes - perhaps he was disoriented and swam to shore? He was a certified scuba diver, a strong swimmer - drowning was not even a possibility, right? Wrong. Impossible things happen. They found his body shortly before 9 am the next day. I sit back and reflect on my uni-browed best friend and realize that although life is so devastatingly different and wrong without him, in his death he gave me a lifelong gift. I feel strongly that he made sure there was someone to take care of me and my son. Jeremy and I would not have ever taken the time to connect in the manner that we did had life not taken such a turn. In the two weeks after George's death, I found myself surrounded at home by people that no matter how far we grow apart, I will always hold dear to my heart. You do not endure the loss of your 'brother', your best friend, without the group of people that move along in life holding you up along the way. Life has taken many different turns, but it has taken me in so many wonderful - and some equally horrible - places. My support group dissolved - and all that has been standing through everything has been my rock - otherwise known as my husband. I will forever thank George for bringing us together, all the while cussing him for leaving me....

School's Out for Summer!

I just uploaded my final assignments for the two classes I took this summer....hallelujah! It was excruciating, jamming a semester's worth of work into 7 weeks. Kicked my ass, really. Thank goodness it is over - I will not be voluntarily taking summer classes again! I guess we will have to see if my stress paid off when grades are posted Thursday...

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Today

You know, just when I think things cannot get any worse - they do.

Just when I think that I cannot take any more - something bigger is thrown at me and I discover that I can.

As soon as I feel overwhelmed, and am ready to turn my back on the world - a dirty, sticky, slobbery kiss from a two year old makes the world right.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Summer Time

My kids are going to drive me to the nut house. I am serious. I only work Monday, Wednesday and Friday so I am off on Tuesdays and Thursdays with the boys. God help us.

The Time of My Life



Okay, so I suppose there are times I have had more fun, but at the moment, I cannot think of any. My dear dear friend Lydia, whom I met on the internet while pregnant (even though she only recalls me after we gave birth) with my youngest son Braden, and her family drove all the way from their comfort zone in PA to the flint hills of KS. They arrived on Thursday, and stayed through Monday evening. We did not do anything super exciting, but I had a blast. We played with the kids, and went on short day trips. In the evenings, we ate good food and drank wine. I was nervous about them coming and Jeremy being a jerk. I worried for nothing. Jeremy had a wonderful time and impressed me with his instant befriending of Derek. We are hoping to travel East in the Fall/Winter - and it was all Jeremy idea and suggestion! YAY!

If I can remember how, I will upload a few pictures...

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Been awhile - AGAIN. I still suck at this.

So, awhile back the boys asked to join 4H. Sure, no problem. What a better way to teach them responsibility, help build their character, and provide a positive socialization outlet, right? We have been going to meetings, and have chosen our projects for the year. Because Ryan was not 7 by January 1, he has to be a Cloverbud. No big deal, you would think. WRONG. He is pissed. Seriously. It makes me laugh, but really, once he figures out that he can do EVERYTHING Cody is doing, and NOT have to keep a record book, I think he will change his mind. Their projects are poultry (enter chicks and ducks), geology (yay - rocks!) and rabbits. Ryan is only interested in rabbits. Cody wants to do EVERYTHING. It is exhausting, but fun. I have learned to raise baby chicks and ducks, and I have a few that are quite fond of me. And more that hate me. LOL Oh well. I have been the only one taking care of said animals. Cannot say I am surprised....




Summer is coming! SO Excited. I will only work 2-3 days a week this summer, so the boys and I can go do lots of fun stuff...as long as it is cheap! I am excited to spend days at the ool. I love the pool.


I am going to go back to school. I am torn on what to do, but I need to go back and finish what I started. I will just take online classes for awhile, then when I get Braden's schedule all figured out at daycare, I may go on campus ... but I doubt it. I am too old for that shit.

I am turning 30 so very soon....

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

KELLY ROCKS!, Facebook....and other Randomness

Facebook - I love it. I think I may be addicted. I couldn't really get into the whole twitter thing...it was annoying - always left me asking for more. But, Facebook...I can find ANYBODY on there, and if I want to know more, I ask...SOMEBODY knows! MySpace was good for that for a little while, but it is so INVOLVED...too many clicks to get where I really want to be. I like that I have more contacts on Facebook - it must be where the cool people hang.

Kelly - congratulations you skinny bitch...spend your $50 well. Buy something sinful.

Braden is being referred out to the Children's Mercy Asthma and Allergy specialists. Waiting for them to call me and tell us when...hopefully we can avoid another RSV episode, or worse.

Back to work for me - there are my random sputterings for the day.